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31-May-2008-FIREWORKS
May is my birth month. A single day of May must be spent at Antipolo church. This year, May 31 was the day. I do this every year to give thanks, honour, praise… Believe me, The lets-pray-to-antipolo-church thing is the reason why I am still alive and this time, I was with my sister. We prayed, we ate, we photographed some moments.
That day, a certain event was also held and we were lucky to see a firework display. I was so happy. Fireworks. Different lights. Different Colours. Different effects. Signalling a start of something new and something inevitable and that’s how I ended the month of May.

2-June-2008-ICE-CREAM
This day is the last day of my internship. I was not ready. I never thought that it would be hard to say goodbye to my daily routine. For example, waking up 3 o’clock am after going home 10 o’clock pm. The cold breeze of mornings. The shuttle rides. And the smiling faces of new friends that I haven’t got the chance to know more. On our lunch, I gave them an Ice Cream.. Signalling the coldness I would feel because of missing the place, people, experiences.. but don’t get me wrong I am happy because finally the 240-hour requirement was done. Sobra pa nga. So this is how it feels…

3-June-2008-REPORTS-AND-DEATHS
Gosh. Remembering everything since the first day is the hardest thing to do. Imagine. I am alone when I entered the company to apply. The exams.. embarrassment.. rejections.. worries.. falling apart.. standing up.. meeting new people… learning’s… etc. dami kong pinagdaanan don and it was all unforgettable. Until now, It’s still so surreal to think that I made it! Reporting everything is like missing everything…
Speaking of missing, I heard that the brother of the priest in our church died. Condolences po. The priest said, “ Iba pala kapag sa’yo na nangyari. Noon, ang dali-dali magbigay ng payo sa iba.. pero iba pala kapag sa'yo na nangyari.. kapag ikaw na ang nawalan…” Hay, Life..

4-June-2008-JEEPNEY
I submitted all the practicum requirements. It was cool to be back at school. It feels as if a year had passed but it was only a month. The jeepney ride seems to be a different ride…Signalling that the roller coaster ride of emotions is not yet over..

5-June-2008-VIBRATIONS
My enrolment day. One subject where all my block mates was enrolled has an empty slot. I hate that but I have no choice but to choose a different schedule. I also saw some first year students having a tour in the university. Lucky freshies they have a long way to go. Me? I only have 2 semesters to cherish everything about being a student. Yays! I’m sure It’s not going to be that easy but positive vibes is the only vibration available here. We could do the impossible. I know, we could…

6-June-2008-COFFEE-AND-CUPCAKES
Coffee + Cupcake = Perfect Breakfast!
Hmm, Everytime I drink my coffee, I remember someone..

7-8-June-2008-SWEET-MESSAGES
It’s so nice to receive text messages from old and new friends.
An old friend texted me saying, “Gud evening, musta?”. It’s been three years and my high school friend is still keeping in touch, willing to share a part of her life and somehow we still click!
It’s also a blessing to have friends that you can text every time you have something in mind even though it’s just a simple thought from your everyday happenings. Yung mga super babaw lang na idea.
And you know what?, it’s even nicer to receive text messages from new friends na more than 2 weeks mo lang nakasama but they still remember you, text you, miscall, Pwede na din. Hehe. Even though you have different networks!
One last, It’s super nice to receive an unexpected comment from a super girl!

So, every time a friend texts you or leave your phone a miscall. Be happy that he or she remembers you. Ui, naalala ka nya! Truly, distance is not a hindrance when it comes to friendship.

9-June-2008-AIR-SUPPLY
Today, I’ve downloaded a LOT of air supply’s songs. I love their songs!
If you have a the budget to go to their concert unlike me.
Go to this link : http://210.1.130.73/2006/detail.php?eid=779&res=Y&w=col

Ojt mode is over. Enrolment mode will be done soon. Thesis mode is going to start again.
I must prepare my self.. I guess, i'll be needing a lot of air-supply this school year.

April loves Black Coffee

Have you read cbu? If not, and you are you looking for a fanfic, I would definitely recommend Solangel's Conversations Between Us. Actually, I didn't know that cbu is existing until it became the Soompi's 2007 Fanfic of the Year Winner. Yes, it is! no wonder, no doubt! These past days I just can't end my day without reading it. I just love her writing style, the twists, surprises..it's a must-read! I never thought that reading a gang-related fic + the romance of course would be so fun and exciting. That's why, I now enjoy watching k-dramas with a gang or fightings!

I don't want to spoil the story. So, just prepare yourself to experience different kinds of emotion. Admittedly, I cried while reading it. I cried. I laughed. I smiled. I even fall in love! The feeling is that as if I am the main character, as if I can still feel her pain, sadness, happiness...as if I also want to turn back the time. I still can't explain the feeling!

April loves Black Coffee, Forever.

The 366 pages is worth-reading...Believe me!
Go Go Go, Here are the links: cbulink docversionlink

Rollercoaster of emotions

One moment I’m happy then one moment I’m sad.

Why did they let me expect something from them?
Why they didn't tell me from the very start that I should be ready for fucking rejection?

I realized that it’s hard to be optimistic when everything doesn’t turn out the way it should be… or the way you hoped it should be.

It’s hard to smile.
It’s even hard to breath.
I want to forget everything about it.

You can call me pessimistic.
Call me emo.
Call me weak.

I don’t care.

My parents keep telling me that it’s all part of God’s plan.
That something’s are meant to be while something’s are not meant to be.
Some people can get what they want easily while some must accomplished it the hard way.
That I will soon find my place, that this is just a test from God for me to be strong.

I’d read so many inspirational stuffs and quotes but why when I’m in the middle of problems everything doesn’t make any sense...

As I type this, my eyes are still hurting because of crying.
My heart is still aching because of pain.
Before I thought that I am already immune to pain.
But why do I feel this way?
I want to be numb...

I need a break from this roller coaster of emotion.

You can call me pessimistic.
Call me emotional, call me weak.
I don’t care.

Lord, give me some hope.
If this is a way for me to pay all the sins I've done. Go on.
I just want all these to end happily.

big as in BIG love!

My Big Love Synopsis:

Pastry chef Macky (Sam Milby) has struggled with his weight for most of his life. It’s not easy being fat, especially when you’re in love with a young socialite columnist named Niña (Kristine Hermosa). He has been her constant secret admirer, surprising Niña every time with cakes and flowers. Everything is going well until Niña meets Macky, who gets the shock of her life when she sees Macky in his 300-pound glory. Then comes Aira (Toni Gonzaga), the ever-vibrant fitness instructor who knows how to motivate her clients well. Being the breadwinner of the family, she has to double her effort to meet their daily needs. After a number of failed attempts, Macky finally agrees to be her client. In the process of losing weight, the two gained love and affection for each other.Aira then agrees to accept an offer to work abroad, separating the two. Two years pass and the Macky who was once laughed at is now one of the most sought-after bachelors in town. Unfortunately, his heart is now owned by her ultimate fantasy - Niña. But an untimely encounter with Aira reminds Macky of his happy old days. Macky now has to choose who really is his big love – is it the woman he dreamt of all his life or is it the woman who loved him unconditionally?

The fangirl inside me is again starting to come out.
I watched the film with girlfriends: edz, aiza, f8, glaiza...
Ang ganda,ganda,ganda 100000x ng big love!
I am recommending you to watch the movie! Gogogogo...
Admittedly, the last movie i watched in cinema was 'you got me'.wala na yata akong alam panuorin sa sine kundi movie ng samtin.
Sabi ko nga kung ako si Destiny, ichuchupi ko si toot sa buhay ni toni at si tootno.2 sa buhay ni sam.haha.kung ako lang ang masusunod.
Iba talaga yung 'kilig factor' kapag silang dalawa!
aYun..daming lessons learned!

STEP1: GOAL SETTING
STEP2: START TODAY
STEP3: NO SHORT-CUTS
STEP4: BE MOTIVATED AND INSPIRED
STEP5: BE HAPPY



If Ever You're In My Arms Again

It all came so easy,
All the loving you gave me
The feelings we shared,
And I still can remember
How your touch was so tender,
It told me you cared

We had a once in a lifetime
But I just couldn't see,
until it was gone

A second once in a lifetime,
May be too much to ask
But I swear from now on

If ever you're in my arms again
This time I'll love you much better
If ever you're in my arms again
This time I'll hold you forever
This time will never end

Now I'm seeing clearly
How I still need you near me
I still love you so

There's something between us
That won't ever leave us
There's no letting go

We had a once in a lifetime
But I just didn't know it
Till my life fell apart
A second once in a lifetime
Isn't too much to ask
'Cause I swear from the heart

We got The best of romances,
Deserve second chances
I'll get to you somehow
'Cause I promise now