senti mode

Dear Self,

Alam ko ang dami mong kailangang gawin. Ang dami mong responsibilities at minsan naprepresure ka na. Kaya mo yan, madami ka ng napagdaanan. Kaya mo yan, malalampasan mo din yan. Hindi lang ikaw ang may problema. Hindi lang ikaw ang nahihirapan. Always smile, there's a lot of reasons to be happy.

Good vibes always,
Essa ( :

it takes time

sana ganon kadali ang lahat.

it takes time..
it takes time...

sister

From now on, I will not talk to her. She is the reason why I'm still on confusion, I don't know what should I feel. Sadness? Anger? Hate? Pity? Betrayed? Regret? I want to end this mixed-emotion thing. She has no idea how much I want to blame myself for all these things. She has no idea how much I want to transfer all the pain she has into me, if that's the only way to make her feel better. I want to comfort her. I want to hug her. I want to do that, maybe because she's still my sister, my only sister. But I just can't, I feel so betrayed.

I know I also have shortcomings. Maybe I am not a very good sister to her. Maybe I wasn't there when she needs me. Maybe the things I did was not enough for her to refuse on the bad things that the world could teach her.. I should have seen this coming. I should have done something to prevent these things from happening. I want to turn back the time and stay on the moments of our laughters and sharings. But it seems so impossible. I'm missing the old her.

I realize a lot of things from this situation. You know me, I'm the kind of person who could still smile even in the middle of a storm. Weakness is there but positivity is also there. I am hoping that sooner or later she would realize how much we love her. That all those advices and the things we do are for her own good. I wish she will soon learn to let go and value the unconditional love of our heaven-sent parents. I am praying for that..

But now, I just can't talk to her. Maybe because I know she still doesn't realize her bad deeds. I just can't talk to her because I'm waiting for a sign. I just can't talk to her because I want to hear something from her.. I want to sincerely hear the five-letter word from her.

Maybe then I could trust her again and see that things are coming back on it's proper places again.

Ano laman ng bag mo?

Ano laman ng bag ko?

Hanky, powder, cellphone, comb, umbrella, ballpen,
books, notebooks, highlighter, ballpen, candies, i.d.,
yellowpad, rosary, cards, pictures, mirror, coin purse, etc.

I hate bringing bags na ubod ng liit. Gusto ko kasya lahat ng gamit ko. I don't have a make-up kit or kikay-kit whatsoever. On regular days, I use shoulder-bag or body-bag.

How about you?
What are the things that you always bring with you.
Ano laman ng bag mo?

inspite and despite

I got these pics and messages somewhere..

If you think your job is tough, how about him?










If you think your salary is not good enough, how about her?








if you feel ur society is unfair to you, how about her?












You think study is a great burden. how about her?











If you think you don't have many friend, ask yourself if you have one sincere friend..


If you keep complaining about your transport system, how about them?









You said you suffer a lot in life.
Take a look and think again, do you suffer as much as he does?


If you think you are unhappy, look at them.

"What is beautiful is not always good, but that which is good is always beautiful"
Being happy is the priority of living. If you wanna be sad, be sad for something that really WORTH it !!!

When love ends..

How long should you hold on?
How soon should u let go?
How do u move on?

“Kung nakaya ko, kaya mo rin. Naalala mo noong ako nandiyan? O, eh hindi ba’t ikaw pa nagsabi sa akin na baka kaya tayo iniiwan ng taong mahal natin, kasi baka merong bagong darating na mas okay, na mas mamahalin tayo, yung taong hindi tayo sasaktan at paasahin, yung nagiisang tao na magtatama ng mali sa buhay natin, ng lahat ng mali sa buhay mo…” - one more chance

After watching One More Chance, I've learned that..

"It's not Destiny that determines Love it is Choice. Relationship last long not because they're destined to last long. Relationships last long because two brave people made a choice - to keep it, to fight for, and to work for it. While other relationships fail not because they're destined to fail. They failed because one of the two, or both made the choice - to set each other free.."

roller-coaster

roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..
it feels like a roller-coaster ride..

roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..
i think it will never stop...

roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..
jesus be my companion..

roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..
happy, sad, smile, frown

roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..
I have so many questions..

roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..
Life is a roller-coaster ?!

I think, I am use to it.
roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..

I wish for it to stop even just for a while..
roller-coaster...
roller-coaster..

i'm not in love

I am in love with the idea of him.
so, I'm not in Love.

I am in love in the idea of being in love.
so, I'm not in Love.

I am NOT in Love...
I wish I am.