by mistakes we learn

Yesterday was a very looooooong day. So many highs, so many lows. And I just wanted to put all these quotes inside my heart and mind. Maybe, You know why.

Losing doesn't eat at me the way it used to. I just get ready for the next play, the next game, the next season.”
-Troy Aikman

“Everybody's human-everybody makes mistakes. If you laugh it off and keep going and try to give it your best the next time around, people respect that.”

“Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.”
- Oscar Wilde

"In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time."

-Anthony J. D'Angelo

“What do you first do when you learn to swim? You make mistakes, do you not? And what happens? You make other mistakes, and when you have made all the mistakes you possibly can without drowning - and some of them many times over - what do you find? That you can swim? Well - life is just the same as learning to swim! Do not be afraid of making mistakes, for there is no other way of learning how to live!”
- Alfred Adler

“I think we all wish we could erase some dark times in our lives. But all of life's experiences, bad and good, make you who you are. Erasing any of life's experiences would be a great mistake.”
-Luis Miguel

“There are no mistakes. The events we bring upon ourselves, no matter how unpleasant, are necessary in order to learn what we need to learn; whatever steps we take, they're necessary to reach the places we've chosen to go.”
-Richard Bach

“If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.”
- Mary Pickford

“By ignorance we mistake, and by mistakes we learn”
Proverb quotes

run away

I want to run away not because of cowardice or anything but just to have a break. I need it. Badly. I want to run away and go somewhere else. Somewhere peaceful, quiet, and where I could be alone even just for a day.. away from these school works. . I just have to think and digest the roller coaster of emotions that the world brings. I just need to refresh my mind, take some time to rest and analyze my so called journey- my life. It feels like my mind & heart are not working properly. Hayyyzz.. Tired. Uninspired. Sleepy. Lost. Stressful. Uncertain. Fragile. Feeling wasted. Etc., Etc.

I just want to run away and be back soon with clear thoughts,
fixed heart and mind.
If only I could.. I will..

The love that I'll never had.

I just want to share this with you. I got this from a forum. Read it ( :

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Ladies and Gentlemen: Good Afternoon. Try to look at the sky, do you think it’s gonna rain? It so amazing to feel rain, the water that flows into you is unstoppable, sometimes raging so fast or maybe gently pours down. Rain is like love. What is love? Love is a very powerful word. It is an unstoppable emotion that is supposed to be felt by every one of us. When someone is in love, actions are set to do in order to show the love and to bind it into a relationship. See that’s what love can do, but does the same thing happen to all of us? The answer is no, there are some love which are not bound to happy ending. Sad but that’s a fact that becomes a part of the Earth’s rotation.

How can you tell to someone that you’re in love with him/ her? It’s too hard, isn’t it? It takes a lot of courage but sometimes the bravery that you have will turn into misery. A thing that can ruin you or mold you to be a better person. Is it fair? I think it is because having the courage to love you should also have the courage to suffer too and love without pain is impossible.

Love can be magic but as we all know magic can sometimes be an illusion. Why can’t it be real? There are certain reasons why can’t we have the love that we are aiming for. Listen to the following phenomena. First, let me ask you, “Who are your celebrity crushes?” have you ever think that a famous celebrity have a feeling for you? Well if you answered a big yes you might be experiencing erotomania a phenomena in which you think a celebrity is falling in love with you and you think that person is your soul mate. Sounds impossible, isn’t it? But it is happening most especially to the teen-agers. Next, who is your best friend? Who are you’re friends? I can tell you who you are by knowing them but I can’t tell if you’ll be falling in love with each other. Respect is what attached person in friendship and it is set to be destroyed by love especially at the end of your story. How about this, is there anyone on your same sex that arouse your interest or maybe a member of your family that you want to build in with? Its more complicated because here people involved thinks about what the people that surrounds them are set to think, it seems like you care a lot about what the society has to say. When we fall in love, it’s the soul that is captured and fighting with it will not be easy. Those alibis are good excuses why can’t you have the love but what if there’s nothing really wrong. What if the reason is just simply the person just don’t like you? That’s the hardest reason possible I think.

The heart broken times, the time where in you're saying that you're an idiot falling for the wrong person. There are times that you're all alone, sleeping and waiting to be woke up by him/ her but unfortunately, and no face appeared as you open your eyes the next morning. We usually do certain things in order to erase that person in your mind. One would probably said that finding another love is the best thing others may moved on with their life and do a lot of things and making their selves busy by giving time for their family, studies, career or even social life. But is forgetting someone who put scar on your face that easy? No, some would probably be stuck in that moment, be a hostage of the love and be trapped there, believing, being faithful, and learning to love without anything in return.

What’s the best option among the list that I have given a while ago? Actually it depends on the person; whatever the choice is let’s respect it. Whatever it is the love inside will never die, still remaining there. I think loving someone without anything in return is a big blessing, its true love, the love that everybody wants but unfortunately ignoring it when its there. The efforts you have would where simply be wasted. It is somewhat like there's a glass that fell on your feet and the blood is already dripping but that person just looks at you, still unconscious, looking but never knew that you did that to get the attention. You'll be doing that until the time that you realized that you became addicted. In your thoughts, in your dreams, that person is always there. He/She is like a leech that sucks blood from you and you can't breathe and you can't see the world without him/her, that person has taken over you and you realized that you need to be fixed.

On the time that you realized you lose yourself and the damage has been done for you, that's the time wherein all you think is how to fight the feeling, how to kill it, it is the hardest part in love. Why are you afraid of losing that person when you know that he/she is not aware that you exist? Forgetting someone is not easy, one must solve the problem in order to forget and its not easy that why the next best option is set to come, to avoid, try to let go. Letting go is not to forget, not to think or to ignore. It doesn't have any feelings of sadness, emptiness, hatred, anger, jealousy or regret. It’s not about pride and it’s not dwelling on the past or blocking memories. Most of all it’s not about giving up and being a loser. To let go is to cherish the memories, to be thankful to the memories that made you laugh, cry and grow but to overcome it and moved on. Its learning, experiencing and growing molded together. It’s having a confidence in the future. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and accept there are things that cannot be, and the strength to keep moving. It’s to open a door and to clear a path and set yourself free.

You realized that the time of departure is already there and as we travel we carry something with us. Everybody would probably agree that its nice to travel with someone who can lighten up our load, but usually its easier to just drop what we've been carrying so we can get to our destination sooner even though there's still no place to land on. Where will we go? Why do we clutch at that baggage even when were desperate to move? Because we still believe that a chance is still there and believing on it, letting go will not be possible instead we walk away to the lovely sunshine that is waiting for us and do the same mistake again, instead of killing it, you already lose control and waking up from this nightmare seems impossible and all you can do is to pray let it be over.

Ladies and gentlemen, a while ago I said that in order to feel love I must be ready to suffer. I feel bad because you, the one who opened my heart was not the one for me but do I have the right to blame you? The answer is no because you didn't asked for it but did you ever realized that you did something to me one day, the day you break my suit of armor by simply taking over me. I'm not the same person I was 2 days ago since that day. Something is different and I can't figure it out and I know I can’t never be that me again. I call your name over and over, like a refrain. I became your hostage; you ate me and leave me like the last piece of cookie in the jar, all alone and broken. I’ve been lickin’ my wounds but the venom seeps deeper and I’m about to break that’s why I need to walk away from you that's why I cried a river and made a bridge that I’m about to pass. I know I can pass the bridge without looking back at your side, without regretting that I passed it. The time that I can be on the other side of the bridge, smiling and facing the lovely day that I've should felt before when I was with you. I know that day will come, very soon, very very soon.

With that ladies and gentlemen, that’s the love that I’ll never have.

blame it on me

Some lines from 'Sorry, Blame It On Me'. A song of Akon.
A song that almost states what I want to tell them :(

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry for the fact that I am not aware
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way

And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

i wish i could go back

I don't know why but a part of me really wants to come back to this place. Now it's impossible, but if given the chance i know it would really make me very happy. This place taught me to face the world on my own, to meet people, and do things i never thought i could. If someone will offer me to work there, for sure I will never have a second thought about it.

I wish i could go back..

Credits to the owner of the last 3 pics.

prayer

Give me the strength to make it through

Grant me the faith to carry on

Give me hope when all hope is gone

BCS42

Maraming salamat sa bawat isa sa inyo. Marami akong nalaman at natutunan sa retreat natin. Malalampasan din natin ang mga pagsubok. Kaya natin ‘to. Kakayanin natin. Basta lahat ng ginagawa natin ialay natin sa kanya. Ayun pala yun eh! Ayos! Gudlak. Manalo, matalo, mahalaga lumaban tayo diba? God Bless Us All.

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord

tired and uninspired

I just noticed that lately... I've been so tired and uninspired. I am just convincing myself that I am Ok.. that I am optimistic.. that i am happy... that I am strong. But the truth is I am sad.. afraid.. confuse.. and just forcing myself to go on.. ='c Tired and uninspired. I don't know why. Maybe bcoz Thesis is NOT cool. Economics Term-Paper is NOT cool. There are sooooo many things to do but soooooooo little time.. ='c

What makes YOU beautiful?

For Art Appreciation Subject.

Everyone has its own beauty. Beauty is not determined only by what we see physically but what’s inside our hearts. And what makes me beautiful is life itself. I am beautiful because of people that surrounds me, experiences that I had, challenges that I have overcome and the dream that keeps me going. I found joy in the simplest of things. I can smile in the middle of the storm. I am understanding. I can see good things in every person. I care for people. I dream. I’m real. I am beautiful because God loves me..

I also have my-weaknesses, my-shortcomings and my-mistakes but all these things doesn't matter because none of us is perfect and I believe that our imperfection makes us beautiful.

I am beautiful in my own way.. You are beautiful in your own way....in our own special ways. ( =

"I just think happiness is what makes you pretty. Period. Happy people are beautiful. They become like a mirror and they reflect that happiness. If somebody walks into a room and they're drop-dead gorgeous and sexy, it's really fun to look at. But if somebody is giving of their spirit and they make you laugh and feel good, that's a whole other level of beauty. Being happy makes you beautiful." - Drew Barrymore

What makes YOU beautiful?

Closing Cycle

By Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancour towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

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As if this was written for me. I always wonder why people in our lives cant stay forever by our side. I always wonder why we have to meet them, to know them only to part. why do we have to leave? why do they have to leave? ... and then i realized that's life. people come and go. some people came for a reason, some stayed just for a season, but of course there are people in our lives that will be there for a lifetime. Closing cycle is never as in never that easy. I know. I really, really know.

It makes me sad that soon i have to end a beautiful chapter of my life again. It makes me sad to think that people I am with right now will have to wave goodbye at me and then move on. Leaving me unsatisfied. Clueless. Lost. Trap. and still wanting more all over again.

Ive been through with so many goodbye-ill-never-forget-you moments in life. Remembering the past and the people who are no longer in my present makes me sad a bit. But knowing that they're still there and one day fate will be so kind to us again makes me happy. Memories of them makes me smile.. They are temporary. But memories... memories are permanent.

I know for sure that soon, we have to wave goodbye. we have to close a cycle, to shut the door, to end a chapter because no matter how much we want to hold on, still, we have to let go, face another journey, and meet new people.

That's life, it could be soooo ironic as you expect it to be.

Big THANKS to Paulo Coelho.

not afraid?

I am not. As a matter of fact, I am looking forward for it. I am excited about it. Imagine. All the mysteries will be so clear. All questions will have an answer. As the song goes.. the pain you feel will be a different kind of pain. Hmm.. I am not afraid to die. I’m afraid HOW I am going to die. And now, I am wondering how will I die. Car accident. Shot by a gun. Hit by a knife. Incurable disease. Die old?

I can still remember the scene. A woman was hit by a mini-track. Her scooter at the side of the street. She was lying on the street. Blood on her head. Unconscious.People panicking… I hope she’s okay and still alive now and At that moment, I realized; At any time, we will die. At any time,you will die. Scary isn't it? Every time the thought of dying crosses my mind. I pray to God: Please NOT NOW. I still have lots of things to do. Unknown Mission (as of now) to accomplish. Dreams to make. People to help. People to love. Places to go. Etc. Etc. The list goes on..

But now, we are very much alive. Still alive and kicking. What’s the point of being afraid? As the quote says, People know they will die but still they live. Life, We must make the most of it while we can. It’s a blessing… Have you read Purpose Driven Life Book. It’s the best. Because of that book I learned that no matter how hard your life is, no matter how many big problems you’re facing right now. You must fight. Never as in never, never give Up Or take away your own life Because there’s an afterlife. There’s an eternity. There’s heaven. Yes, I want to be at HOME with HIM. I can’t wait for the day where all my MISSIONS will be accomplished. I can’t wait to hear him say, “I FORGIVE YOU. WELCOME HOME”