horoscope

I am not the type of person who rely and believe so much in horoscopes but i do love checking my friendster horoscope and today it offers a good advice. I think it's right and suits me.

The Bottom Line
Putting all your effort into minimizing risk doesn't always pay off -- just relax.

In Detail
Putting effort into minimizing your risk doesn't always pay off -- sometimes, you just can't avoid it no matter how hard you try. You could be paralyzing yourself by focusing so much on what could go wrong -- because a million things could go wrong, and you can't prevent all of them! Instead, you need to start focusing on what could go right! That will help you swing into a healthier, more productive gear. Your subconscious is actively moving into a brighter future, so why don't you follow it?

So, whats your horoscope for today?

optimism vs pessimism

warning : long post at mejo madrama ito. tsktsk!

nitong mga nakaraang araw hindi ko talaga alam ang dapat kong maramdaman. minsan napaka-positibo ko sa kabila ng lahat pero may mga pagkakataong napaka-negatibo ko. manhid na lang sana ako. walang pakiramdam. walang lungkot. walang ganitong drama. nakakapagod na eh.

minsan negatibo..

Ang hirap. Ang hirap malagay sa ganitong sitwasyon. May mga sandaling hopeful ako pero may mga sandaling feeling ko napaka-loser kong tao, tulad ngayon. Kung tutuusin ako naman ang may kasalanan ng lahat. Ako naman ang may kagagawan. Pero bakit ganito? Bakit hindi ko matanggap? Sobrang nagbago na ba ako? Ang sama ko na ba talaga? Nasan na ang dating ako? Kakayanin ko kaya? Mapapatawad ko pa ba ang sarili ko? Kailan ulit ako lubos na magiging masaya. Ang tanga ko. Ang loser ko. Ang Iyakin ko. Ang pessimist ko. Ang selfish ko. Amp. Sna maglaho na lang ako. ayoko na pagod nako sawa nako. i am wasted. failure sucks.

minsan naman positibo..

kaya mo yan. pagsubok lang yan. sa bawat pangyayari sating buhay maganda man o pangit ay may aral na mapupulot dyan. alam ko minsan feeling mo hindi mo na kaya. minsan ayaw mo ng ngumiti. madalas nais mo lang mag-isa. pero tingnan mo. may nangyayari ba? magsimula ka na lang muli. kung ano man ang mga pagkakamali mo, tamain mo. Alam ko minsan parang imposible na ang lahat. pero alam mo namang posible pa din diba? may pag-asa pa naman diba. May dahilan kung bakit nangyayari ang lahat. ibalik mo ang dating ikaw o kung hindi mo na kya ibalik. magsimula ka ulit. bagong ikaw, mas matatag, mas madiskarte. mas matapang. At kung pwde lang isaksak mo ito sa kukute mo : “There are no mistakes. The events we bring upon ourselves, no matter how unpleasant, are necessary in order to learn what we need to learn; whatever steps we take, they're necessary to reach the places we've chosen to go.” Madami ka nang napagdaanan. kaya mo yan noh! At isa pa wag mong kalimutang magdasal. kapit lang. kapit lang. ganyan talaga ang buhay yung mga plano mo sa sarili mo minsan hindi magwowork-out. Yan ang thrill, excitement. Ang boring naman kung laging msaya. baka wala ka ng matutunan. paano mo malalaman ang sarap na tagumpay kung hindi mo naman natikman ang pait ng pagdurusa? go on girl.. go on!

ayan kahit papano nalaman mo na kung pano ko kausapin ang sarili ko sa isip. hehe. slightly nakakabaliw na nga eh. pero ganito siguro talaga. kailangan maging ok. hmm..ok..ok.."ok lang", madalas kong sabihin kapag may nagtanong kung kamusta na ko. pero ang totoo. hindi ako ok. nagpapaka-ok lang. kapag sinabi kong hindi ako ok, kailangan ko pa ipaliwanag sa kanila isa-isa. ang problema ko. kailangan ko pa ipaintindi na ganito-ganyan, wag na lang, super stress na ko. intindihin nyo na lang kahit mahirap intindihin.

optimism vs pessimism. mas gusto ko ung optimism siyempre pero minsan sadyang hindi mapigilan na mag-isip nang hindi maganda. sometimes i feel so strong. but sometimes i feel so weak. so lost. so confused. minsan ayoko na lang isipin. ayoko na lang pag-usapan. hay buhay nga naman. ang emo-emo ko na tuloy. pero alam mo may narealize ako. alam ko na'to dati pero iba pala yung impact ng mga aral sa buhay kapag sa'yo na nangyari: ang mga mistakes ay nais sating iparealize na sa buhay. walang rewind. reset. pause. flashback. hindi mo na mababago ang nakaraan kaya naman ingat ka sa mga desisyon at hakbang mo. pahalagahan ang kasalukuyan. mabuhay sa kasalukuyan.

Pagsubok

Isip mo'y litong lito
Sa mga panahong nais mong malimot
Bakit ba bumabalakid
Ang iyong mundong ginagalawan
Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan
Sulirani'y di mapigilan
Itanim mo lang sa 'yong pusong
Kaya mo yan....

Pagkabigo't alinlangang
Gumugulo sa isipan
Mga pagsubok lamang 'yan
Huwag mong itigil ang laban
Huwag mong isuko....sadyang labanan

Huwag mong isiping ikaw lamang
Ang may madilim na kapalaran
Ika'y hindi tatalikuran
Ng ating ama na siyang lumikha
Hindi lang ikaw ang nagdurusa
At hindi lang ikaw ang lumuluha
Pasakit mo'y may katapusan
Kaya mo 'yan....

Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain That life may bring
There's no other hope That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord Lead me all my life

Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hand Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road
Lead me Lord And never leave my side
All my days All my life

You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

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write, write and write

WifelySteps.com and Avalon.Ph is giving away a Moleskine journal. So I'm trying to push my luck on this to have the notebook. You can also join the contest by answering this question : "What would you write in your Moleskine?"

I would write about my journey.. about my life.. my experiences, my random thoughts, my dreams, hopes, and desires. I would write about people.. about my friends.. my love ones.. my family. I would write about them because they are inspiring and I learned a LOT from them. With that my moleskine will be filled with wonderful and inspiring stories. I would write my life lessons, my mistakes and challenges that made me strong. I would write my favorite quotes. I would write about my feelings. Happiness, sadness, everything.. I would like to write everything in my Moleskine so when the future comes I could go back to the past just by reading it all over again.

inspiration

Got this from soompi.

"Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone you just met, and you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I’ve learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt and learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It’s you that has to take that first step into the pathway of happiness. It’s your doing that makes you who you are. Don’t assume; get your fact straight. That is what messes a lot of people up. There’s always the true story and reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common, we all want happiness. it is like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want, and it makes us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy. life is what you make of it. Don’t be selfish. Don’t limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. Remember, time isn't going to wait for you, so. Make the best of it."

Someone said there that "quotes are inspiration for the uninspired". Well, I think I need more quotes. I need inspiration.

best actress

I think I could be . . . the best actress;
for making my own life miserable,
for being the cause of their sufferings,
for crying litre of tears
and for acting as if everything's okay.

happy loner

I want to ...

* go to moa; window-shop. buy a book. buy a shirt. eat ice-cream. witness the beautiful sunset or sunrise.

*have a new haircut.

*sing @ the videoke; sing atleast 20 songs. yes. 20! (maybe on my 20th bday, yey!)

*go to a library; a library where i could find the books i wanted to read for the past months. read them and make a book review.

*watch movie; not a horror-movie. hmm i like a romantic-comedy.

*go to a concert; watch my fave artists perform live! that's cool!

* go to a church for another one-on-one talk with the Lord.

*take pictures during all the listed plans above and share it here.

You can call me a loner coz I want to do the above plans ALONE, though it would be fun with family and friends. Hmm I just want to date myself. A loner-trip, you could say. This is for the record. This would be an escape from all the problems @ home and school. Of all the things happening right now, I think I deserve these plans. This is also for things-i-did-for-the-first-time-list. This is for finding myself once again. And this can surely put a smile on my face ( :

so true : [

I really don't have the mood to explain what i am feeling right now. So, I tried Colorgenics again. Guess what? Somehow, it stated the me right now.

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

friendship

Sa friendship daw, walang iwanan, walang sakitan
Pero ang totoo ay kabaligtaran nyan.

Pero minsan may mga kaibigang nandyan lagi sa tabi nyo iniintindi kayo pero bulag kayo na makita sila at tanggapin
meron ding kaibigan na sasapok sa'yo minsan kapag alam nilang mali ka para na rin sa kabutihan mo pero sa huli sila pa ang nagiging masama pero hindi ka nila ginigive-up, ikaw lang
may kaibigan ding through downfall at mistakes mo nandyan sa tabi mo para damayan ka kahit anong mangyari
kaibigan na nakikinig sa'yo kapag may problema ka.. umiiyak kapag umiiyak ka.. tumatawa kapag tumatawa ka at ang mga kaibigan na kasama mo sa mga times na masaya ka
- yan ang tunay na kaibigan. Kung naghahanap ka ng ganyan. Nandito ako naghihintay sa'yo. Sana pansinin mo ang friendship na inoofer ko. - written by a friend, Glaiza a.k.a. Zayl

the rope

I am hanging in this rope too. The time is running out. The rope is breaking. My hands are hurting and there were times that I wanted to let go. I wanted to just open my hands and fall...

I was the one who put myself on this situation. I hate it. So I think I have to love myself more as in MORE! Now, I dont know what will happen next. I am just preparing myself. No one will catch me I know. And if I fall I will not only hurt myself but also the people hoping for my success.

Sorry, I dont want to sound so negative I just have to let these feelings out. Don't worry, I still have enough hope to pass this. I think I am just afraid that's why negative thoughts are entering my head. Anyway, I'll do my best!

One last thing, can I ask you a favor. Please Pray for me. I need your prayers.

college lyf survey

1. School mo?

- DLSU-D
2. College course mo?
- BS in Computer Science
3. Anong year mo na?
- 4rth year
4. Anong color ng uniform mo?
- green, white + wash day
5. Cnu-cno tropa mo s skul mo?
- Bcs42
6. Fave tambayan?
- baba ng dorm, kubos..
7. San kau palage kumakain?
- baba ng dorm, square..
8. Kaninong fave haus kau lge gumagawa pg group proj?
- iba-iba eh. pero sa thesis madalas haws ni glaiza!
9. Sino mdalas mong kasama?
- girlfriendz [edz.aiza.glaiz.chelle.joyann.f8]
10. Sino kasabay mong pumasok?
- wala.
11. Sino kasabay mong umuwe?
- si glaiza ( :
12. Fave pntahan pg walang class?
- hmm.. kahit san..
13. Ano ang paborito mong subject?
- anu nga ba?! sa totoo lang mas gusto ko yung mga minor subjects ( :
14. bkit un ang pinili mong skul?
- gusto ni mama.
15. Fave hnihiram ng clasm8 m sau?
- notes at powder haha!
16. kabisado mo ba ang skul hymn nio?
- hail hail alma mater hail to de la salle!...
17. plagi ka bng late?
- hahaha what a question,.. always kaya pero nagbabago na'ko!
18. palagi ka bng ngllakwatsa?
- hindi. minsan lang. kapag trip lang namin.
19. Ngccutting classes k b?
- wahihi.. minsan lng. ngaung 4rth yr lng yta.
20. palagi ka bng absent?
- wahihi.. ngaung 4rth yr lng din yata. pasaway n ko. hehe
21. May crush ka ba s classrum?
- uhm.. wla eh..
22. College life crush?
- hmm.. si bf ko. kapag nalaman nya break na kami. nyahaha.
23. Ano oras ka umuuwi?
- 6,7, or 8!
24. Best thing in college?
- inspiring lessons, people & friends. at mga outside campus activities! ( :
25. last na toh..i-rate mo 1-10 ang college life mo, 1 ang mababa?
- 9.. kahit kung anu-ano na nangyari.. super saya naman.. daming natututunan.. daming first time experiences. ayun, kaya 9!

mangrove

09-27-08. BCS42@Calatagan, Batangas. Part of LaSalle's Green4Life Project. A lot of things happened for the first time. Unexpected. Challenging. Tiring. BUT still its a fun-fun. Ayt?! Ayt?!