Me, Myself and I 101

Sobrang daming nangyari simula nung huli kong post. Hindi ko na ikwekwento pa. Basta hindi kami nagkasundo ni Kapalaran. Sa katunayan, simula pa lamang ng taon ay sari-saring emosyon na ang naramdaman ko at sa mga emosyon na iyon ay laging nangingibabaw ang kalungkutan. Sinusubukan ko pa lang bumangon mula sa paulit-ulit na pagkadapa noong nakaraang taon sabay biglang boom! Anyway, anyway, kasalukuyan na akong nasa proseso nang paghilom, pag-aayos at pagbabalik sa mga bagay-bagay sa dapat nilang kalagyan. Dapat ay maging balanse na ulit ang lahat. Anu nga ba ang nangyari sa akin? Mahirap ipaliwanag kaya huwag mo na lang itanong. Kahit kailan hindi ko kinailangan ang panghuhusga ng sinuman. Sabi nga, may karapatan akong sumemplang na walang magbibilang kung ilang beses na akong sumemplang. Hay sa totoo lang ayoko ng sumemplang. Anyway, anyway..

Si Essa, ako at ang sarili ko ay may munting proyekto sa taong ito na pinamagatang, ME, MYSELF & I. Bawat buwan ay magpopost ako ng mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa akin, mga nararamdaman ko, mga paniniwala, kawirduhan at kung anu-anung pa basta tungkol sakin. At ito ang entry ko para sa buwan ng Enero.

Me, Myself and I 101.

1. Minsan kapag nasa jeep. Iniisip ko kung anong ang iniisip nang bawat taong kasabay ko. Iniisip kaya niya ang hirap sa buhay, problema, saya, minamahal, mga kailangan gawin, pangarap, mga pagsisisi o kaya naman baka pareho lang kami ng iniisip.
2. Puting palda at blusa ang uniporme namin nung highschool pero pangarap ko pa din ang magsuot ng uniporme ng mga nars, yung may puting stockings at cap.Gusto ko magpapicture na ganun ang suot ko.
3. Kare-kare with bagoong, Ice-cream, Cake, Sinigang with Gabi, Spagetti with cheese, sunny-side up, half-cook egg, beefsteak, bavarian doughnuts, mashed potato, sisig, coffee, shakes, kalamansi juice at hot chocolate ay ilan sa mga paborito ko at hindi pagsasawaang mga pagkain at inumin.
4. Sa Local Showbiz, idolo ko sina Sarah Geronino, Bianca Gonzalez, Heart at Kc Concepcion.
5. Mahilig ako manood ng mga teleserye at asianovela. Trip ko din manood ng mga reality shows/contests tulad ng pbb, pda, pff, at ai.
6. Ang kurso at magiging trabaho ko ay hindi man lamang sumagi sa isipan ko noon.
7. Sa loob ng 10-15 oras ay kaya kong tumagal sa paggamit ng computer. Bisyo na nga ito. Hahaha.
8. Umaabot ako ng isang oras sa pagligo. Minsan. Minsan? Minsan.
9. Mahilig ako magbasa at magsulat.
10. Gusto ko matuto ng Photography.
11. Magaling ako magtago ng tunay kong nararamdaman. Masaya kahit malungkot. Ganun.
12. Likas sa akin ang pagiging masayahing tao.
13. Hindi ako marunong magalit. Tampo at inis lang. Kaya kung magagalit man ako sa’yo. Major yun! Lagot ka! Hehehe. Pero hindi nga mangyayari yun dahil hindi ako marunong magalit. Pero malay mo.
14. Naengganyo ako isulat ito sa tagalog dahil sa mga Pinoy Blogs na kamakailan ko lang nadiskubre.
15. Masaya ako sa paglalaan mo nang oras sa pagbisita dito at sa pagbabasa. Maraming Salamat!
16. Pero mas magiging masaya ako kung sasamahan mo ako sa munting proyektong ito at gagawa ka din nang sarili mong listahan buwan-buwan ng mga kung anu-ano basta tungkol sa’yo. ( =

i am forever thankful

This is my entry for avalon.ph Final Contest! Win a Moleskine Weekly Planner! You could also join by simply answering this question:

What are you thankful for this year (2008)?

I am thankful for my parents. I am thankful for their unconditional love, understanding and undying support. No matter what happens I am sure that they will always be here for me. Even though I am an unworthy-daughter-to-carry-our-surname, even though I disobey most of the times, even though I am not someone to be proud of I can still feel their love. This year, I’ve realized how lucky I am to have a complete family and loving parents. I always have badnews for them, failures, mistakes, shortcomings, etcetera but you know what, after all, I didn’t receive any hard-hitting words from them. I thought they will shout at me. I thought they will punish and blame me but they did not. And what did I got? I received understanding, compassion, undertanding, advices... sometimes i do ask myself, what did i do to be so blessed like this?

I am thankful for my parents. For their sacrifices, for racing us, for teaching us, for providing us everything we need, for their presence, cares, supports, inspirational stories, for being a verygood example , for guidance, patience...

A lifetime is not enough for me to return all the good things they’ve done for me. My wonderful journey in this life would not be possible without them.

I need to love myself a little bit more.

This week has been very stressful. At home and in school, there’s always something to be stressed about. Honestly I didn’t perform well. I was absent or late. I missed some of our long quizzes and seat works and I wasn’t able to pass my assignments. Super Model student? Agghh what the hell?!! Traffics before and after school does sucks. Also, this week I didn’t have a decent sleep because of overnights, programming and other papers to finish. The only best thing that had happened this week is that we were able to pass the documentation of our thesis on time.

I am glad that I am still breathing, doing this blog entry and still wearing a smile on my face. This is good. I can feel that the optimism (in the middle of difficulty) I always had before is finally coming back. Yehey to me ( :

I am organizing files in my computer then I’ll continue reviewing my lessons later. I miss my bed. I miss bloghopping. I miss my friends. I miss myself.

Next week is our prelim week plus I also need to take those long quizzes I’ve missed. Simbang Gabi starts next week so let’s make sure not to miss it ok? Ok.

“Sometimes you just cant tell someone how you really feel. Not because you don’t know why, not because you don’t know your purpose, not because you didn’t trust them, but because you can never really find the right words to make them understand”

Paano

My computer clock shows that it's 5:14 am. The morning person in me is alive again. I have so many things to do. Just thinking of those things makes my head ache.

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Paano ka magmamahal ng iba kung mismong sarili mo ay hindi mo magawang mahalin?
Paano ka lalaban kung ang kalaban mo ay ang sarili mo rin?
Paano ka umaasa kung alam mong wala ng pag-asa?
Paano ka nagpapatuloy kung alam mong wala ng patutunguhan?
Paano?
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*C# mode*
Hoping this week would end..

perfectly fine.

realization

"I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me. But it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst.

And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it. And then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday."

Lines from american beauty
Image from postsecret

The picture, the words in it, and the lines from american beauty tells what i really wanted to write. It's nice to know that I am not alone and other people feels the same way too. The past weeks, i was so emo :( everything was a problem for me but now i've decided to be happy ( : and take everything as a challenge. There's so much beauty in the world. so much..

ironies

July 2008, I created a thread, asking people what are the ironies in their lives.

bankereconomist : you can't get everything all at once
people usually deny their negatives and shortcomings

shychic : sometimes you become the person you exactly hate

ermonski : your gain, other's loss
we're so happy that my nephew was born a week ako... in exchange... the Lord took my grandmother earlier...we'll miss you lola!

irie : a traffic jam when you're already late~
a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break~
its meeting the man of my dreams and then meeting his beautiful wife~
its the good advice that you just didnt take..who would've thought.. it figures~

makalogic : Build your life, hopes, and dreams for that future family of your own...but choosing
to be alone so you can get there as fast as you can
We begin to die...the moment we are conceived.
Each second is a second closer to the time of your death, yaiks!

edfaj33 : letting go of someone i used to have tapos saka naman siya sinisimulan iaccept nila mama...like, i've ben hiding him from my family for such a long time tapos after i decided to stop na, saka naman bumait sila mama sa guy, as in they are already showing signs na they are ready to accept the guy...grrr! hehehe,..ala naman probs yung guy eh, sobrang bait nga...but with all this pressures im having right now, ayoko muna ng any attachment...ganun lang... ironic.

pokerbuff : The girl I want does not want me, the girl I don't want wants me.

h2z33 : he asks you to come back to the philippines so you'll be together (you on the otherhand, is currently in san francisco enjoying life with your family) ... and it doesnt happen... for some cosmic reason, you just cant be together. sus! to make it worse,.. you are now alone. no family and no significant other

triniti : im not happy at work.. because they pay me to do no work at all. hehe

rendaku : My irony is, one cannot identify me by my handwriting.

^pusa^ : the person who shape you on who you are today, is also the same person who will destroy you.

kauriehart : Life doesn't always turn out the way you plan. Life is like a box of chocolate, you'll never what you get.

yellowribbon : i used to think that if you finish college, get yourself a good job, have good business apart from that stable job, find a man, earn respect of your peers, life would be perfect. but nooo, life always finds a way to screw things up

starrynight : searching for life in the midst of death. loving someone in a dead-end relationship. seeing hope in a hopeless situation.

jill0624 : love changes and cures a person.. but at the same time, it can be a trap.. it can destroy a person who gives her/himself completely..

spoiledangel : i like a guy younger than me but i dont know what he feels. then, another guy younger than me is making his moves but i dont like him.

nightwing05 : telling the truth and having no one believe you..
creating the flimsiest excuse and actually have someone accept it..
tsk, tsk, tsk..

feistyvirago : Even with the best laid plans you have set up for yourself, anticipating all the worst case scenarios even so you have a back-up plan (Plan B), someone or something would always happen that is even worse than you have ever anticipated, majorly screwing your plans. So you want to start all over again, but this time, you just don't want to plan anymore. Haaay.

damnright : people often don't get what they wanted but they're not getting what they deserve either.

So, whats yours?

Questions

How do you speak without words?
How do you cry without tears?
What is music without melody?
Is it like love without pain?

Why does the leaves,
Waits for the fall to wither?
Why does the sun,
Sometimes doesn't shine?
Why do people in love say,
They can touch the sky?
Then end up with,
A sad good bye.

Why do we sacrifice,
In order to gain?
Why not expect,
When you have all the hopes?
Why is there a struggle in every fight?
And cry yourself to sleep at night.

How do you feel a moment,
When it isn't even yours?
How do you smile,
When your heart is aching?
How do you read the writings on the wall,
When it is all between the lines?
Just, how do you?


Written by: cherlaurel

one thing about human being that puzzles me the most

Human beings are funny…they long to be with people they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feeling may not be recognized or, even worse, returned… but one thing about human being that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be remotely connected with their object of affection, even if it kills them slowly within. -Sigmund Freud

advices from bob ong

Here are some of my favorites..

Nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.

Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras.

Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan.

Kung hindi mo mahal and isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.

Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ang sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.

Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang

Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.

ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko

Bakit ka magpaparamdam sa taong hindi marunong makaramdam? Wag kang magpakatanga, sa taong hindi marunong magpahalaga. Matuto kang sumuko at mang-iwan, kung lagi ka namang sinasaktan.

Imbis na magtanong ka ng "Hindi pa ba sapat?" Bakit hindi mo na lang kalimutan ang lahat? Kung alam mong binabalewala ka na, tanggapin mong nagsasawa na sya. Wag kang magpadala sa salitang "sorry" at "ayokong mawala ka" kung totoo yun, patunayan nya.

Pag pinag-aagawan ka, malamang maganda ka o gwapo ka. Tandaan mo: Sumama ka sa mabuti, di sa mabait. Sa marunong, di sa matalino. Higit sa lahat, sa mahal ka, di sa gusto ka.

Ano namang mapapala mo sa kakaisip sa nakaraan at sa mga pwede pang mangyari? Wala ka naman cgurong super powers para maibalik ang nakalipas na. Dapat matuto kang pahalagahan ang mga nangyayari sayo sa kasalukuyan. I-enjoy mo lang ang buhay. Wag kang Emo. Hindi ka talaga magiging masaya kung di mo tutulungan ang sarili mo. Natural lang na makaramdam ng lungkot paminsan-minsan pero ang pagiging miserable? Wag kang hibang, choice mo yan.

"Paano mo masasabing special ka sa isang tao kung ang bawat ginagawa niya sayo ay ginagawa din niya sa iba? "

habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo at mauubos ang oras

hindi porket madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa phone, kasama sa mga lakad o katext wantusawa e may gusto sayo at makaka tuluyan mo na....may mga tao lang talaga na sadyang friendly,sweet,flirt o paasa

pero mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala

hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan.

Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo.Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.

Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo.

ang mundo, sa totoong buhay, ay hindi 'yung makulay na murals na nakikita sa mga pre-school. Hindi ito laging may rainbow, araw , ibon, puno at mga bulaklak

Sana ang pag-ibig ay katulad ng pamasahe sa jeep na kapag buo ang binigay mo, sinusuklian ka pa din kahit papaano..

Kahit kailan walang maling desisyon. Nagiging mali lamang ang isang desisyon kung hindi ito napaninindigan

hindi ba malaking pagkakamali ng maraming eskuwelahan na gawing 0 to 10% lang ang 'character' sa computation ng grades, mas mababa sa periodical test (20%), project (30%), at class standing (40%) gayong character ang humuhulma sa tao, pamilya, bansa, mundo, at kasaysayan?

sked

Never ending seatworks, shortquizzes, longquizzes, assignments, projects, recitations, major exams, thesis, thesis, thesis. Whew. My "24-units-left-to-graduate". Super overload. Super expensive. Grhh I need financial supports. Anyone? lol. Please do pray for me, for my blockmates, and for all the graduating students around the world...

time flies so fast

One thing I hate about myself is that I am a ...

procrastinator.

I have a LOT of things to be done, I know my deadlines, I know what I need to do but I postpone doing it and do unimportant things first. So lazy, so immature!

I hate it and I want to stop it. SOON? No! This kind of attitude must be stopped NOW.

You? Do you procrastinate? How much do you procrastinate? Any advice on how to stop procrastinating?

messed up

If not because of my mistakes and its consequences I wouldn’t be the person I am now. I wouldn’t have the chance to learn some important life lessons and I will not have the chance to know how it feels to be so messed up and lost. You know what? After all, I am still very thankful and blessed. I am now starting over and pushing forward. I know this is the best way to go.

Sometimes.. it is okay to make mistakes. It's an experience.

quest?on

Yeah. I am losing my way. My life's complicated.
What will happen next?

horoscope

I am not the type of person who rely and believe so much in horoscopes but i do love checking my friendster horoscope and today it offers a good advice. I think it's right and suits me.

The Bottom Line
Putting all your effort into minimizing risk doesn't always pay off -- just relax.

In Detail
Putting effort into minimizing your risk doesn't always pay off -- sometimes, you just can't avoid it no matter how hard you try. You could be paralyzing yourself by focusing so much on what could go wrong -- because a million things could go wrong, and you can't prevent all of them! Instead, you need to start focusing on what could go right! That will help you swing into a healthier, more productive gear. Your subconscious is actively moving into a brighter future, so why don't you follow it?

So, whats your horoscope for today?

optimism vs pessimism

warning : long post at mejo madrama ito. tsktsk!

nitong mga nakaraang araw hindi ko talaga alam ang dapat kong maramdaman. minsan napaka-positibo ko sa kabila ng lahat pero may mga pagkakataong napaka-negatibo ko. manhid na lang sana ako. walang pakiramdam. walang lungkot. walang ganitong drama. nakakapagod na eh.

minsan negatibo..

Ang hirap. Ang hirap malagay sa ganitong sitwasyon. May mga sandaling hopeful ako pero may mga sandaling feeling ko napaka-loser kong tao, tulad ngayon. Kung tutuusin ako naman ang may kasalanan ng lahat. Ako naman ang may kagagawan. Pero bakit ganito? Bakit hindi ko matanggap? Sobrang nagbago na ba ako? Ang sama ko na ba talaga? Nasan na ang dating ako? Kakayanin ko kaya? Mapapatawad ko pa ba ang sarili ko? Kailan ulit ako lubos na magiging masaya. Ang tanga ko. Ang loser ko. Ang Iyakin ko. Ang pessimist ko. Ang selfish ko. Amp. Sna maglaho na lang ako. ayoko na pagod nako sawa nako. i am wasted. failure sucks.

minsan naman positibo..

kaya mo yan. pagsubok lang yan. sa bawat pangyayari sating buhay maganda man o pangit ay may aral na mapupulot dyan. alam ko minsan feeling mo hindi mo na kaya. minsan ayaw mo ng ngumiti. madalas nais mo lang mag-isa. pero tingnan mo. may nangyayari ba? magsimula ka na lang muli. kung ano man ang mga pagkakamali mo, tamain mo. Alam ko minsan parang imposible na ang lahat. pero alam mo namang posible pa din diba? may pag-asa pa naman diba. May dahilan kung bakit nangyayari ang lahat. ibalik mo ang dating ikaw o kung hindi mo na kya ibalik. magsimula ka ulit. bagong ikaw, mas matatag, mas madiskarte. mas matapang. At kung pwde lang isaksak mo ito sa kukute mo : “There are no mistakes. The events we bring upon ourselves, no matter how unpleasant, are necessary in order to learn what we need to learn; whatever steps we take, they're necessary to reach the places we've chosen to go.” Madami ka nang napagdaanan. kaya mo yan noh! At isa pa wag mong kalimutang magdasal. kapit lang. kapit lang. ganyan talaga ang buhay yung mga plano mo sa sarili mo minsan hindi magwowork-out. Yan ang thrill, excitement. Ang boring naman kung laging msaya. baka wala ka ng matutunan. paano mo malalaman ang sarap na tagumpay kung hindi mo naman natikman ang pait ng pagdurusa? go on girl.. go on!

ayan kahit papano nalaman mo na kung pano ko kausapin ang sarili ko sa isip. hehe. slightly nakakabaliw na nga eh. pero ganito siguro talaga. kailangan maging ok. hmm..ok..ok.."ok lang", madalas kong sabihin kapag may nagtanong kung kamusta na ko. pero ang totoo. hindi ako ok. nagpapaka-ok lang. kapag sinabi kong hindi ako ok, kailangan ko pa ipaliwanag sa kanila isa-isa. ang problema ko. kailangan ko pa ipaintindi na ganito-ganyan, wag na lang, super stress na ko. intindihin nyo na lang kahit mahirap intindihin.

optimism vs pessimism. mas gusto ko ung optimism siyempre pero minsan sadyang hindi mapigilan na mag-isip nang hindi maganda. sometimes i feel so strong. but sometimes i feel so weak. so lost. so confused. minsan ayoko na lang isipin. ayoko na lang pag-usapan. hay buhay nga naman. ang emo-emo ko na tuloy. pero alam mo may narealize ako. alam ko na'to dati pero iba pala yung impact ng mga aral sa buhay kapag sa'yo na nangyari: ang mga mistakes ay nais sating iparealize na sa buhay. walang rewind. reset. pause. flashback. hindi mo na mababago ang nakaraan kaya naman ingat ka sa mga desisyon at hakbang mo. pahalagahan ang kasalukuyan. mabuhay sa kasalukuyan.

Pagsubok

Isip mo'y litong lito
Sa mga panahong nais mong malimot
Bakit ba bumabalakid
Ang iyong mundong ginagalawan
Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan
Sulirani'y di mapigilan
Itanim mo lang sa 'yong pusong
Kaya mo yan....

Pagkabigo't alinlangang
Gumugulo sa isipan
Mga pagsubok lamang 'yan
Huwag mong itigil ang laban
Huwag mong isuko....sadyang labanan

Huwag mong isiping ikaw lamang
Ang may madilim na kapalaran
Ika'y hindi tatalikuran
Ng ating ama na siyang lumikha
Hindi lang ikaw ang nagdurusa
At hindi lang ikaw ang lumuluha
Pasakit mo'y may katapusan
Kaya mo 'yan....

Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain That life may bring
There's no other hope That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord Lead me all my life

Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hand Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road
Lead me Lord And never leave my side
All my days All my life

You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

Image owned by Southpaw

write, write and write

WifelySteps.com and Avalon.Ph is giving away a Moleskine journal. So I'm trying to push my luck on this to have the notebook. You can also join the contest by answering this question : "What would you write in your Moleskine?"

I would write about my journey.. about my life.. my experiences, my random thoughts, my dreams, hopes, and desires. I would write about people.. about my friends.. my love ones.. my family. I would write about them because they are inspiring and I learned a LOT from them. With that my moleskine will be filled with wonderful and inspiring stories. I would write my life lessons, my mistakes and challenges that made me strong. I would write my favorite quotes. I would write about my feelings. Happiness, sadness, everything.. I would like to write everything in my Moleskine so when the future comes I could go back to the past just by reading it all over again.

inspiration

Got this from soompi.

"Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone you just met, and you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I’ve learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt and learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It’s you that has to take that first step into the pathway of happiness. It’s your doing that makes you who you are. Don’t assume; get your fact straight. That is what messes a lot of people up. There’s always the true story and reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common, we all want happiness. it is like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want, and it makes us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy. life is what you make of it. Don’t be selfish. Don’t limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. Remember, time isn't going to wait for you, so. Make the best of it."

Someone said there that "quotes are inspiration for the uninspired". Well, I think I need more quotes. I need inspiration.

best actress

I think I could be . . . the best actress;
for making my own life miserable,
for being the cause of their sufferings,
for crying litre of tears
and for acting as if everything's okay.

happy loner

I want to ...

* go to moa; window-shop. buy a book. buy a shirt. eat ice-cream. witness the beautiful sunset or sunrise.

*have a new haircut.

*sing @ the videoke; sing atleast 20 songs. yes. 20! (maybe on my 20th bday, yey!)

*go to a library; a library where i could find the books i wanted to read for the past months. read them and make a book review.

*watch movie; not a horror-movie. hmm i like a romantic-comedy.

*go to a concert; watch my fave artists perform live! that's cool!

* go to a church for another one-on-one talk with the Lord.

*take pictures during all the listed plans above and share it here.

You can call me a loner coz I want to do the above plans ALONE, though it would be fun with family and friends. Hmm I just want to date myself. A loner-trip, you could say. This is for the record. This would be an escape from all the problems @ home and school. Of all the things happening right now, I think I deserve these plans. This is also for things-i-did-for-the-first-time-list. This is for finding myself once again. And this can surely put a smile on my face ( :

so true : [

I really don't have the mood to explain what i am feeling right now. So, I tried Colorgenics again. Guess what? Somehow, it stated the me right now.

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

friendship

Sa friendship daw, walang iwanan, walang sakitan
Pero ang totoo ay kabaligtaran nyan.

Pero minsan may mga kaibigang nandyan lagi sa tabi nyo iniintindi kayo pero bulag kayo na makita sila at tanggapin
meron ding kaibigan na sasapok sa'yo minsan kapag alam nilang mali ka para na rin sa kabutihan mo pero sa huli sila pa ang nagiging masama pero hindi ka nila ginigive-up, ikaw lang
may kaibigan ding through downfall at mistakes mo nandyan sa tabi mo para damayan ka kahit anong mangyari
kaibigan na nakikinig sa'yo kapag may problema ka.. umiiyak kapag umiiyak ka.. tumatawa kapag tumatawa ka at ang mga kaibigan na kasama mo sa mga times na masaya ka
- yan ang tunay na kaibigan. Kung naghahanap ka ng ganyan. Nandito ako naghihintay sa'yo. Sana pansinin mo ang friendship na inoofer ko. - written by a friend, Glaiza a.k.a. Zayl

the rope

I am hanging in this rope too. The time is running out. The rope is breaking. My hands are hurting and there were times that I wanted to let go. I wanted to just open my hands and fall...

I was the one who put myself on this situation. I hate it. So I think I have to love myself more as in MORE! Now, I dont know what will happen next. I am just preparing myself. No one will catch me I know. And if I fall I will not only hurt myself but also the people hoping for my success.

Sorry, I dont want to sound so negative I just have to let these feelings out. Don't worry, I still have enough hope to pass this. I think I am just afraid that's why negative thoughts are entering my head. Anyway, I'll do my best!

One last thing, can I ask you a favor. Please Pray for me. I need your prayers.

college lyf survey

1. School mo?

- DLSU-D
2. College course mo?
- BS in Computer Science
3. Anong year mo na?
- 4rth year
4. Anong color ng uniform mo?
- green, white + wash day
5. Cnu-cno tropa mo s skul mo?
- Bcs42
6. Fave tambayan?
- baba ng dorm, kubos..
7. San kau palage kumakain?
- baba ng dorm, square..
8. Kaninong fave haus kau lge gumagawa pg group proj?
- iba-iba eh. pero sa thesis madalas haws ni glaiza!
9. Sino mdalas mong kasama?
- girlfriendz [edz.aiza.glaiz.chelle.joyann.f8]
10. Sino kasabay mong pumasok?
- wala.
11. Sino kasabay mong umuwe?
- si glaiza ( :
12. Fave pntahan pg walang class?
- hmm.. kahit san..
13. Ano ang paborito mong subject?
- anu nga ba?! sa totoo lang mas gusto ko yung mga minor subjects ( :
14. bkit un ang pinili mong skul?
- gusto ni mama.
15. Fave hnihiram ng clasm8 m sau?
- notes at powder haha!
16. kabisado mo ba ang skul hymn nio?
- hail hail alma mater hail to de la salle!...
17. plagi ka bng late?
- hahaha what a question,.. always kaya pero nagbabago na'ko!
18. palagi ka bng ngllakwatsa?
- hindi. minsan lang. kapag trip lang namin.
19. Ngccutting classes k b?
- wahihi.. minsan lng. ngaung 4rth yr lng yta.
20. palagi ka bng absent?
- wahihi.. ngaung 4rth yr lng din yata. pasaway n ko. hehe
21. May crush ka ba s classrum?
- uhm.. wla eh..
22. College life crush?
- hmm.. si bf ko. kapag nalaman nya break na kami. nyahaha.
23. Ano oras ka umuuwi?
- 6,7, or 8!
24. Best thing in college?
- inspiring lessons, people & friends. at mga outside campus activities! ( :
25. last na toh..i-rate mo 1-10 ang college life mo, 1 ang mababa?
- 9.. kahit kung anu-ano na nangyari.. super saya naman.. daming natututunan.. daming first time experiences. ayun, kaya 9!

mangrove

09-27-08. BCS42@Calatagan, Batangas. Part of LaSalle's Green4Life Project. A lot of things happened for the first time. Unexpected. Challenging. Tiring. BUT still its a fun-fun. Ayt?! Ayt?!

by mistakes we learn

Yesterday was a very looooooong day. So many highs, so many lows. And I just wanted to put all these quotes inside my heart and mind. Maybe, You know why.

Losing doesn't eat at me the way it used to. I just get ready for the next play, the next game, the next season.”
-Troy Aikman

“Everybody's human-everybody makes mistakes. If you laugh it off and keep going and try to give it your best the next time around, people respect that.”

“Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.”
- Oscar Wilde

"In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time."

-Anthony J. D'Angelo

“What do you first do when you learn to swim? You make mistakes, do you not? And what happens? You make other mistakes, and when you have made all the mistakes you possibly can without drowning - and some of them many times over - what do you find? That you can swim? Well - life is just the same as learning to swim! Do not be afraid of making mistakes, for there is no other way of learning how to live!”
- Alfred Adler

“I think we all wish we could erase some dark times in our lives. But all of life's experiences, bad and good, make you who you are. Erasing any of life's experiences would be a great mistake.”
-Luis Miguel

“There are no mistakes. The events we bring upon ourselves, no matter how unpleasant, are necessary in order to learn what we need to learn; whatever steps we take, they're necessary to reach the places we've chosen to go.”
-Richard Bach

“If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.”
- Mary Pickford

“By ignorance we mistake, and by mistakes we learn”
Proverb quotes

run away

I want to run away not because of cowardice or anything but just to have a break. I need it. Badly. I want to run away and go somewhere else. Somewhere peaceful, quiet, and where I could be alone even just for a day.. away from these school works. . I just have to think and digest the roller coaster of emotions that the world brings. I just need to refresh my mind, take some time to rest and analyze my so called journey- my life. It feels like my mind & heart are not working properly. Hayyyzz.. Tired. Uninspired. Sleepy. Lost. Stressful. Uncertain. Fragile. Feeling wasted. Etc., Etc.

I just want to run away and be back soon with clear thoughts,
fixed heart and mind.
If only I could.. I will..

The love that I'll never had.

I just want to share this with you. I got this from a forum. Read it ( :

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Ladies and Gentlemen: Good Afternoon. Try to look at the sky, do you think it’s gonna rain? It so amazing to feel rain, the water that flows into you is unstoppable, sometimes raging so fast or maybe gently pours down. Rain is like love. What is love? Love is a very powerful word. It is an unstoppable emotion that is supposed to be felt by every one of us. When someone is in love, actions are set to do in order to show the love and to bind it into a relationship. See that’s what love can do, but does the same thing happen to all of us? The answer is no, there are some love which are not bound to happy ending. Sad but that’s a fact that becomes a part of the Earth’s rotation.

How can you tell to someone that you’re in love with him/ her? It’s too hard, isn’t it? It takes a lot of courage but sometimes the bravery that you have will turn into misery. A thing that can ruin you or mold you to be a better person. Is it fair? I think it is because having the courage to love you should also have the courage to suffer too and love without pain is impossible.

Love can be magic but as we all know magic can sometimes be an illusion. Why can’t it be real? There are certain reasons why can’t we have the love that we are aiming for. Listen to the following phenomena. First, let me ask you, “Who are your celebrity crushes?” have you ever think that a famous celebrity have a feeling for you? Well if you answered a big yes you might be experiencing erotomania a phenomena in which you think a celebrity is falling in love with you and you think that person is your soul mate. Sounds impossible, isn’t it? But it is happening most especially to the teen-agers. Next, who is your best friend? Who are you’re friends? I can tell you who you are by knowing them but I can’t tell if you’ll be falling in love with each other. Respect is what attached person in friendship and it is set to be destroyed by love especially at the end of your story. How about this, is there anyone on your same sex that arouse your interest or maybe a member of your family that you want to build in with? Its more complicated because here people involved thinks about what the people that surrounds them are set to think, it seems like you care a lot about what the society has to say. When we fall in love, it’s the soul that is captured and fighting with it will not be easy. Those alibis are good excuses why can’t you have the love but what if there’s nothing really wrong. What if the reason is just simply the person just don’t like you? That’s the hardest reason possible I think.

The heart broken times, the time where in you're saying that you're an idiot falling for the wrong person. There are times that you're all alone, sleeping and waiting to be woke up by him/ her but unfortunately, and no face appeared as you open your eyes the next morning. We usually do certain things in order to erase that person in your mind. One would probably said that finding another love is the best thing others may moved on with their life and do a lot of things and making their selves busy by giving time for their family, studies, career or even social life. But is forgetting someone who put scar on your face that easy? No, some would probably be stuck in that moment, be a hostage of the love and be trapped there, believing, being faithful, and learning to love without anything in return.

What’s the best option among the list that I have given a while ago? Actually it depends on the person; whatever the choice is let’s respect it. Whatever it is the love inside will never die, still remaining there. I think loving someone without anything in return is a big blessing, its true love, the love that everybody wants but unfortunately ignoring it when its there. The efforts you have would where simply be wasted. It is somewhat like there's a glass that fell on your feet and the blood is already dripping but that person just looks at you, still unconscious, looking but never knew that you did that to get the attention. You'll be doing that until the time that you realized that you became addicted. In your thoughts, in your dreams, that person is always there. He/She is like a leech that sucks blood from you and you can't breathe and you can't see the world without him/her, that person has taken over you and you realized that you need to be fixed.

On the time that you realized you lose yourself and the damage has been done for you, that's the time wherein all you think is how to fight the feeling, how to kill it, it is the hardest part in love. Why are you afraid of losing that person when you know that he/she is not aware that you exist? Forgetting someone is not easy, one must solve the problem in order to forget and its not easy that why the next best option is set to come, to avoid, try to let go. Letting go is not to forget, not to think or to ignore. It doesn't have any feelings of sadness, emptiness, hatred, anger, jealousy or regret. It’s not about pride and it’s not dwelling on the past or blocking memories. Most of all it’s not about giving up and being a loser. To let go is to cherish the memories, to be thankful to the memories that made you laugh, cry and grow but to overcome it and moved on. Its learning, experiencing and growing molded together. It’s having a confidence in the future. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and accept there are things that cannot be, and the strength to keep moving. It’s to open a door and to clear a path and set yourself free.

You realized that the time of departure is already there and as we travel we carry something with us. Everybody would probably agree that its nice to travel with someone who can lighten up our load, but usually its easier to just drop what we've been carrying so we can get to our destination sooner even though there's still no place to land on. Where will we go? Why do we clutch at that baggage even when were desperate to move? Because we still believe that a chance is still there and believing on it, letting go will not be possible instead we walk away to the lovely sunshine that is waiting for us and do the same mistake again, instead of killing it, you already lose control and waking up from this nightmare seems impossible and all you can do is to pray let it be over.

Ladies and gentlemen, a while ago I said that in order to feel love I must be ready to suffer. I feel bad because you, the one who opened my heart was not the one for me but do I have the right to blame you? The answer is no because you didn't asked for it but did you ever realized that you did something to me one day, the day you break my suit of armor by simply taking over me. I'm not the same person I was 2 days ago since that day. Something is different and I can't figure it out and I know I can’t never be that me again. I call your name over and over, like a refrain. I became your hostage; you ate me and leave me like the last piece of cookie in the jar, all alone and broken. I’ve been lickin’ my wounds but the venom seeps deeper and I’m about to break that’s why I need to walk away from you that's why I cried a river and made a bridge that I’m about to pass. I know I can pass the bridge without looking back at your side, without regretting that I passed it. The time that I can be on the other side of the bridge, smiling and facing the lovely day that I've should felt before when I was with you. I know that day will come, very soon, very very soon.

With that ladies and gentlemen, that’s the love that I’ll never have.

blame it on me

Some lines from 'Sorry, Blame It On Me'. A song of Akon.
A song that almost states what I want to tell them :(

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry for the fact that I am not aware
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way

And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

i wish i could go back

I don't know why but a part of me really wants to come back to this place. Now it's impossible, but if given the chance i know it would really make me very happy. This place taught me to face the world on my own, to meet people, and do things i never thought i could. If someone will offer me to work there, for sure I will never have a second thought about it.

I wish i could go back..

Credits to the owner of the last 3 pics.

prayer

Give me the strength to make it through

Grant me the faith to carry on

Give me hope when all hope is gone

BCS42

Maraming salamat sa bawat isa sa inyo. Marami akong nalaman at natutunan sa retreat natin. Malalampasan din natin ang mga pagsubok. Kaya natin ‘to. Kakayanin natin. Basta lahat ng ginagawa natin ialay natin sa kanya. Ayun pala yun eh! Ayos! Gudlak. Manalo, matalo, mahalaga lumaban tayo diba? God Bless Us All.

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord

tired and uninspired

I just noticed that lately... I've been so tired and uninspired. I am just convincing myself that I am Ok.. that I am optimistic.. that i am happy... that I am strong. But the truth is I am sad.. afraid.. confuse.. and just forcing myself to go on.. ='c Tired and uninspired. I don't know why. Maybe bcoz Thesis is NOT cool. Economics Term-Paper is NOT cool. There are sooooo many things to do but soooooooo little time.. ='c

What makes YOU beautiful?

For Art Appreciation Subject.

Everyone has its own beauty. Beauty is not determined only by what we see physically but what’s inside our hearts. And what makes me beautiful is life itself. I am beautiful because of people that surrounds me, experiences that I had, challenges that I have overcome and the dream that keeps me going. I found joy in the simplest of things. I can smile in the middle of the storm. I am understanding. I can see good things in every person. I care for people. I dream. I’m real. I am beautiful because God loves me..

I also have my-weaknesses, my-shortcomings and my-mistakes but all these things doesn't matter because none of us is perfect and I believe that our imperfection makes us beautiful.

I am beautiful in my own way.. You are beautiful in your own way....in our own special ways. ( =

"I just think happiness is what makes you pretty. Period. Happy people are beautiful. They become like a mirror and they reflect that happiness. If somebody walks into a room and they're drop-dead gorgeous and sexy, it's really fun to look at. But if somebody is giving of their spirit and they make you laugh and feel good, that's a whole other level of beauty. Being happy makes you beautiful." - Drew Barrymore

What makes YOU beautiful?

Closing Cycle

By Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancour towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

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As if this was written for me. I always wonder why people in our lives cant stay forever by our side. I always wonder why we have to meet them, to know them only to part. why do we have to leave? why do they have to leave? ... and then i realized that's life. people come and go. some people came for a reason, some stayed just for a season, but of course there are people in our lives that will be there for a lifetime. Closing cycle is never as in never that easy. I know. I really, really know.

It makes me sad that soon i have to end a beautiful chapter of my life again. It makes me sad to think that people I am with right now will have to wave goodbye at me and then move on. Leaving me unsatisfied. Clueless. Lost. Trap. and still wanting more all over again.

Ive been through with so many goodbye-ill-never-forget-you moments in life. Remembering the past and the people who are no longer in my present makes me sad a bit. But knowing that they're still there and one day fate will be so kind to us again makes me happy. Memories of them makes me smile.. They are temporary. But memories... memories are permanent.

I know for sure that soon, we have to wave goodbye. we have to close a cycle, to shut the door, to end a chapter because no matter how much we want to hold on, still, we have to let go, face another journey, and meet new people.

That's life, it could be soooo ironic as you expect it to be.

Big THANKS to Paulo Coelho.

not afraid?

I am not. As a matter of fact, I am looking forward for it. I am excited about it. Imagine. All the mysteries will be so clear. All questions will have an answer. As the song goes.. the pain you feel will be a different kind of pain. Hmm.. I am not afraid to die. I’m afraid HOW I am going to die. And now, I am wondering how will I die. Car accident. Shot by a gun. Hit by a knife. Incurable disease. Die old?

I can still remember the scene. A woman was hit by a mini-track. Her scooter at the side of the street. She was lying on the street. Blood on her head. Unconscious.People panicking… I hope she’s okay and still alive now and At that moment, I realized; At any time, we will die. At any time,you will die. Scary isn't it? Every time the thought of dying crosses my mind. I pray to God: Please NOT NOW. I still have lots of things to do. Unknown Mission (as of now) to accomplish. Dreams to make. People to help. People to love. Places to go. Etc. Etc. The list goes on..

But now, we are very much alive. Still alive and kicking. What’s the point of being afraid? As the quote says, People know they will die but still they live. Life, We must make the most of it while we can. It’s a blessing… Have you read Purpose Driven Life Book. It’s the best. Because of that book I learned that no matter how hard your life is, no matter how many big problems you’re facing right now. You must fight. Never as in never, never give Up Or take away your own life Because there’s an afterlife. There’s an eternity. There’s heaven. Yes, I want to be at HOME with HIM. I can’t wait for the day where all my MISSIONS will be accomplished. I can’t wait to hear him say, “I FORGIVE YOU. WELCOME HOME”

reason

When it's hard to accept some facts, I just put this in mind.
Someday I'll know that reason.
Someday I'll understand.

madrama :'c

May mga katotohanan na sadyang mahirap tanggapin.
Noon, may mga bagay na gustong-gusto kong malaman,
ngayong alam ko na... sana hindi ko na lang nalaman, sana hindi ko na lang inalam.

a very special love

It's about a guy who has always wanted to be number one, even at the expense of the people around him and that one person who truly loves him.

It's about a young girl whose views about life and love are very optimistic. But when she finally encounters the harsh realities, she realizes the downside of her being idealistic.

It's about finding one's self, accepting the will of fate, and being brave enough to pursue happiness.

The movie is successful in making the people laugh, and even more successful in making them so kilig. Whether the viewer is single or in love or heartbroken, the movie will make him/her feel good. And please, take note of the lines—they might come in handy.

The movie has introduced several out of the box ideas—the post-it notes on the boss's cup of coffee, the now popular "sun dance," and of course, Miggy's super kilig way of winning back the heart of Laida.

Read more @ yehey , pep and multiply

cross roads

Our path crossed, I met him on this journey but soon we had to part ways..


I'm just thinking...

what if time didn't play a trick on us? what if I'll have a chance to know him more? what if he'll have a chance to know me more? would he like me? would he love me?

childhood

We are making an online store for a bicycle company and they gave us some pictures of bikes!

I just remember. .
when I was a kid, riding bicycle was a usual thing to do. Almost everyday, we biked. I can still remember the day I learned how to bike. I got a wound there..

I just remember. .
my childhood and how presureless and carefree my life before.

I just remember. .

senti mode

Dear Self,

Alam ko ang dami mong kailangang gawin. Ang dami mong responsibilities at minsan naprepresure ka na. Kaya mo yan, madami ka ng napagdaanan. Kaya mo yan, malalampasan mo din yan. Hindi lang ikaw ang may problema. Hindi lang ikaw ang nahihirapan. Always smile, there's a lot of reasons to be happy.

Good vibes always,
Essa ( :

it takes time

sana ganon kadali ang lahat.

it takes time..
it takes time...

sister

From now on, I will not talk to her. She is the reason why I'm still on confusion, I don't know what should I feel. Sadness? Anger? Hate? Pity? Betrayed? Regret? I want to end this mixed-emotion thing. She has no idea how much I want to blame myself for all these things. She has no idea how much I want to transfer all the pain she has into me, if that's the only way to make her feel better. I want to comfort her. I want to hug her. I want to do that, maybe because she's still my sister, my only sister. But I just can't, I feel so betrayed.

I know I also have shortcomings. Maybe I am not a very good sister to her. Maybe I wasn't there when she needs me. Maybe the things I did was not enough for her to refuse on the bad things that the world could teach her.. I should have seen this coming. I should have done something to prevent these things from happening. I want to turn back the time and stay on the moments of our laughters and sharings. But it seems so impossible. I'm missing the old her.

I realize a lot of things from this situation. You know me, I'm the kind of person who could still smile even in the middle of a storm. Weakness is there but positivity is also there. I am hoping that sooner or later she would realize how much we love her. That all those advices and the things we do are for her own good. I wish she will soon learn to let go and value the unconditional love of our heaven-sent parents. I am praying for that..

But now, I just can't talk to her. Maybe because I know she still doesn't realize her bad deeds. I just can't talk to her because I'm waiting for a sign. I just can't talk to her because I want to hear something from her.. I want to sincerely hear the five-letter word from her.

Maybe then I could trust her again and see that things are coming back on it's proper places again.

Ano laman ng bag mo?

Ano laman ng bag ko?

Hanky, powder, cellphone, comb, umbrella, ballpen,
books, notebooks, highlighter, ballpen, candies, i.d.,
yellowpad, rosary, cards, pictures, mirror, coin purse, etc.

I hate bringing bags na ubod ng liit. Gusto ko kasya lahat ng gamit ko. I don't have a make-up kit or kikay-kit whatsoever. On regular days, I use shoulder-bag or body-bag.

How about you?
What are the things that you always bring with you.
Ano laman ng bag mo?

inspite and despite

I got these pics and messages somewhere..

If you think your job is tough, how about him?










If you think your salary is not good enough, how about her?








if you feel ur society is unfair to you, how about her?












You think study is a great burden. how about her?











If you think you don't have many friend, ask yourself if you have one sincere friend..


If you keep complaining about your transport system, how about them?









You said you suffer a lot in life.
Take a look and think again, do you suffer as much as he does?


If you think you are unhappy, look at them.

"What is beautiful is not always good, but that which is good is always beautiful"
Being happy is the priority of living. If you wanna be sad, be sad for something that really WORTH it !!!